John

 We said goodbye in Springfield that day

With tears in my eyes
I watched you drive away
Part of me died that day

You went off to Tennessee
To accept a job with more pay to thee
I was left to stay
In Springfield that day

John with your deep blue eyes
Your gentle touch
And mischievous smile
I hope the best comes your way

Those were the best months of my life
With my heart in paradise
Yet here I stayed
In Springfield that day

A few months before
We met at the bookstore
Talked in the coffee shop
That was our first date

We started seeing each other more
As love opened it's door
How that love poured
Know speechless I stand
Holding your hand
As the tears won't go away

John with your deep blue eyes
Your gentle touch
And mischievous smile
I hope the best comes your way

Those were the best months of my life
With my heart in paradise
Yet here I stayed
In Springfield that day

Thru the highs and lows our love did stay
Though our time was short
We spent that time in the most joyous way
Just being together through it all
Until that day you got that call


John with your deep blue eyes
Your gentle touch
And mischievous smile
I hope the best comes your way

Those were the best months of my life
With my heart in paradise
Yet here I stayed
In Springfield that day

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It may have been a short relationship.  But it was the best relationship I ever had

The night before he left we went out to eat.  Then went bowling,  and then to his place for one last time ( boy that was great sex).  When he took me back to my apartment,  instead of going inside,  I watched him leave.  After his tail lights faded in the distance,  I sat on a bench and cried,  before going into the building and up to my apartment 

I remember one time John showed up at my work ( Shoney's )  and said " Tony I know your Birthday was a month before we met, But I want to take you to dinner.)  So he took me back to my apartment so I could shower and clean up.  Then we went to the Olive garden.   Afterwards we played a couple of rounds of mini golf and got some Andy's Frozen Custard before he took me back to my apartment. 

On his Birthday (which was on his day off and mine)  (very rare for us to have the day off at the same time)  we spent the whole day at Bull Shoals lake fishing. 

A week before he left he stopped by my work to pick me up.  Instead of taking me home to my apartment,  we went to a park and talked at the picnic table.   He told me about the job offer in Nashville and that he had to tell his boss the next day yes or no.  "Tony, this job offer means more accounts,  better pay and benefits.   However it would take me from the one person I really love."  "John, I really love you and I always will, but you would be a fool not to take it.  You are just scraping by here in Springfield just like me.  You need this."  "Tony, you could come with me."  " No John, because we rarely had a day off together.  We never got a chance to meet each others family,  and I know my parents would not like me going off to Nashville with someone they don't know,  and I know your parents would feel the same.  No matter how much we trust each other. "  " So I take the job, then what Tony?"  " John we make this the best final week we can"  John told his boss the next day and accepted the job offer.  I help with packing and preparing for the move.  All the while celebrat

ing everything we ment to each other

John and I went to Lambert's .  When I went to catch a roll. I  caught it a way where I leaped into the air.  When I came down I landed with my back on the table  (good thing we had not ordered yet) and my arm with the  roll smacked John on the head.

When John and I went to play Mini-Golf.  We had a habit of using our clubs as swords.  Other people thought it was odd, but we were having fun

John was the best person to enter my life.  Accepted me for who I was,  medical problems and all.  Never made fun of me, only love and care.  I tried to show him the same respect and attitude,  because he had his own set of medical problems.   We never focused on our problems,  but looked toward the future and our time together.

John brought out the playful side of me.  We were always joking and laughing. 

Sometimes John and I would spend a day exploring the Greenway Trails around Springfield.     

We started out as just two good friends hanging out and having a good time.   By the end of the three months, we had really started to have honest and true feelings for each other. We really didn't want to end our relationship.

My relationship with John opened up doors for me, and taught me a form of acceptance I had never experienced before, and it was AWESOME

The day I realized that our relationship was growing.  We had just finished a round of mini golf  and went to Andy's for some custard, then sat on the curb and enjoyed it.  John just came right out and told me how he felt.   I told him how I felt.  Up till this point we had just two friends hanging out together.  Our conversation in Andy's parking lot changed that.  Know we ment more to each other.

After confessing our true feelings for each other.  We tried to find a way to meet each others family.   But nothing seemed to work out for us.  Between our jobs and many other things going on.  Our luck in making such a meeting possible just wasn't going to work out.